I'm lost and good luck never come to me

I'm lost at this time, everything just come to me start with the bad new year, it has been few years my luck never change good... First my mom getting old people sick then my dad sick as well early of this year, i felt i'm too tired for all of this, wondering is there god playing some game with me or i'm not positive enough to take it? Motivator always said that when you think positive everything good damn things will come to you... But why not me?? I have think positive things quite sometimes till to one point i just cant take it.... I need new things that can really bring my out of the box, i just know that only myself can make the decision to get out of this situation, going to pray hard, work hard and rest hard as well... God Bless Me...