I'm lost and good luck never come to me

I'm lost at this time, everything just come to me start with the bad new year, it has been few years my luck never change good... First my mom getting old people sick then my dad sick as well early of this year, i felt i'm too tired for all of this, wondering is there god playing some game with me or i'm not positive enough to take it? Motivator always said that when you think positive everything good damn things will come to you... But why not me?? I have think positive things quite sometimes till to one point i just cant take it.... I need new things that can really bring my out of the box, i just know that only myself can make the decision to get out of this situation, going to pray hard, work hard and rest hard as well... God Bless Me...

Discipline N Enthusiasm

It's has been almost one month i'm not working, for sake of my parents i plan got myself work out of the box which i've take a big risk in my life doing it with my sister moral support and almost all of my friends who are very supportive during my training time or i can said my unemployment time, as an financial agent i got no basic salary and everything is depends on my commission, that means a lots for an agent who likes me??

Sometimes i would ask myself why i need to take this big step in my life just for something i believe in that i can make it just like i'm losing my weight last time? As times goes by i have this kind of feeling that what if one day i got myself depress, that's might be another character of me, some books that they might be writing in a very good, in sense of their packaging the content inside the books that how they success in certain industry, but for me it's just another success story of someone. i'm guess everyone have their own success story but we will never become like them because for me everyone have their own success story people will never have the same success story, we will never know how hard they work for themselves.

I will apply discipline and enthusiasm to my character which i hope one day i can do well in everything, work hard for only for money, but to things that we believe in.

Nic

Patience that keeps us awake

It's has been a very long time i keep patience, patience for the training and training for almost 1 whole months, research, knowledge that i gains from the training and now still left few more trainings to go how good if i can start my things at this moment sometimes even feel that i'm the useless person who waiting things to happen, all i want is just make things happen but not wait things happen this is killing me off sometimes.

Every morning i tell myself live with fullest, but not in this situation doing nothing for the whole day just read books, training, listening song or audiobooks, sometimes i just feel like i need rest?? yeah.. but not so greedy because i holiday just end last sunday.... I need some serious work at this moment, hopefully patience will keep me alive, things that i can't do is to give up, i just cant give up my dreams, my friends that support me all times, my family members and not forget the one always support from my back Uncle Bert he's the supportive person who guide me all the way who i can called him as my mentor, i've learn lots from him we laugh and laugh non stop either during our food session & PT session always laugh never stop, hope one day if i forgot who am i yet i still can remember our laughters.

Patience for our love one's, friends & our dreams to make life a difference, stay hungry & stay foolish...

The Rain

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was


in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.


I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health.
He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease.
As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.
I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?'
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is.'

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, 'That is the kind of love I want in my life.'

True love is neither physical, nor romantic.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message.. This one I thought I could share with you.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

I hope you share this with someone you care about. I just did.

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm,

But how to dance in the rain.'



We are all getting
Older


Tomorrow may be our turn.

Enjoy life now-it has an expiration date!

Deciding my life aiming for Japan trip or Backpack??

This should be my first time, Finally i've decided to do some aiming, goals, determination or what so ever that come into my life... Instead of wasting my time just thinking the $$ that just drop from the sky and today i've make a final decision and i guess this is my tough one's, previously i'm still thinking either i want to stay in this company and continue my unchallenged job get my pay check, sleep, eat, doing and doing nothing that's a waste of time, we cannot get back the time that past but yet at least we can make a different with the remaining time that i have.

I'm worried about my exam for this coming wednesday which on 16th feb i hope i can do well since i've failed the exam for 2 times and i never want to fail it again, anyway just all the best after get my exam done and i still have 1 more paper to go it's CEILI exam sigh it seems like everything is pending how good if everything go smooth as planned anyway this won't keep myself feeling down i know if want to be a success person i've to take every challenge that comes to me <3>

The best part is i've decided to try something that is challenge, challenge?? Yeah, first step i've decide to reward myself with small things before hits those big one's i've choose either go Japan or backpack sounds interesting ya, all i need is the time line when i can reach that goals that i can reward myself?? Lets see how strong & how far i can go.

Great Year Head!!!

From CNY eve to CNY day 2

Hi, I've been missing for sometimes for my blogging but tonite i choose blog again with a bottle of Kampai and a glass of chinese tea. I wish that someday i don't have to think so much of things, as we grew older things changed either from good to bad or bad to good, The reunion chinese new year eve I've bring my mom back, of course that will be my happiest day ever, since i think long time i never bring my mom back home ya i meant back to our home for the reunion dinner there is happy, sad, sweet and bitter in these few days.

First of course there are happy things ever that i can bring my mom back for the reunion dinner and the sad thing is my sis is not around for this reunion dinner but anyway life still go on, just look at my mom each year she getting weak and weaker, i always wish that she's in good condition but not really good after all, i wish she's strong & happy just like before, i miss her voice and i miss her smile for me she's the prettiest woman in this world but the god chosen her to become one of servant of sickness i can't blame on god this might be karma after all, what she did at the past life and she have to pay for this life.

Secondly the same question again my relative asked me the same question again where's ur girlfriend?? errr... i told them i don't have any girlfriend, i think this is the question that unavoidable i told them i'll have my girlfriend if i have fate, things can't forcing but one of my cousin he said you should go find a girlfriend for yourself and what to do since everyone is asking i just smile with them :D

Lastly this year, i think i don't have the feel celebrate this CNY i think this might be very mad while my instructor enjoying celebrate CNY very much, might be his long long holiday, anyway tomorrow i'll heading to gym for workout at the same time i need to choose the right tracks for tomorrow BS own workout and not forget my Spin workout as well hope i can find a nice tracks for myself for workout.

The very very last word for this CNY people will said this "FATT" in chinese Prosperity and i replaced it with "FATS"...

New Year bloggy...

Still got 2 more days reach new year i'm still sitting at starbucks and doing nothing, suddenly feel like typing blog at this moment, i can't sit here till so long, it's because now i'm feeling cold.

What i've learn for this whole year, i'm not really sure it's because i'm lost somewhere around and i'm pretty sure that i'll find back myself at least at the year of 2011, i need to achieve something in my life or else i felt that myself really useless. Might drag myself to financial planner for this year yet i need to get my exam done at january since this i've drag for the past few months from september. Hope this will create miracle for myself, just like my workout remain the discipline and determination :)

New year, new wish and new hope, there always a chance if we can make a difference, think while we can think and talk when we can talk. I do whatever i want to do.